January 25, 2013

So Then I Improvised

Chunko is almost completely potty trained (day AND night time thankyouverymuch)!!! I used our very last diaper/ pull-up to blow my nose in the car the other day so we are officially out!!! I am ECSTATIC!!!!

A very small downside is that when the kid says he has to go potty, he doesn't always have to go. But of course, if we ignore him, that will be when he has an accident. Then he wets himself, and the carseat and whatever else he peed on and it is all my fault for ignoring him.

We are in the car outside of Fart Bone's school and waiting in line to pick him up after school. We are trapped in a sea of parental SUVs and mini vans. That is when nature picks up her phone and calls my two year old.

"Mommy, I have go pee."
"What??? Now???"
"Yes, I have go pee"
"Are you sure???"
"Mommy, I have go NOW!!"

I cannot pull over. I cannot park. I cannot abandon my car, run in the school and back. I mildly freak out wondering why I chose today to clean out my car. I catch a glimpse of an empty water bottle and grasp it like it my saving grace. I hand it to Chunko and tell him to pee in the bottle.

At this point he has already unstrapped himself from his car seat in order to pace the car, chanting about his need for relief. He is standing in front of the front passenger seat and proceeds to pull his pants down. I keep trying to get his penis in the water bottle so he can pee... and then I look up. Into the slightly shocked and completely horrified face of the driver next to me. The woman who is acting like she has never had the opportunity to make her toddler pee in a bottle. The woman who my son is happily waving to, both hands, while I hold a bottle to his penis.

Then the bell rings, and the kids swarm. I realize my son is joyously making a spectacle of himself so I tell him to climb into the back seat to pee. He climbs back there, I reset the bottle and nothing. Apparently, the kid can only pee if people are watching? Like he has the opposite of shy bladder? Is that public bladder?

He pulls his pants up and hands me the empty bottle, "I don't have go pee, Mommy" as he climbs out of my reach. He is so lucky I had to move that car right at that moment or I would have throttled him! He sits in his carseat, buckles back up and acts like I am the crazy one!!

And let me tell you, after almost three years of this kid... Maybe I am.

January 23, 2013

Inner Peace Makes You Go Oooommmm

I am having a very hard time with anger lately. I strive to let it go and move away from it. I try not to let it into my home or my heart but I am not made of stone and I do have a temper.

I feel that I was searching for an answer when I wasn't even looking and I found this quote today:


It was the perfect reminder for me. I needed to remember to let my anger go so I wouldn't end up burning myself. I can't allow myself to become angry and bitter. I love that this popped up in front of me when I first opened my computer and it was just a happy accident that my coworker is slightly computer incompetent.

I will not focus on the negative, only on the positive (even if that was negative to say that).

I am breathing in the wonderful and breathing out the anger.
I am breathing in my love and breathing out the jealousy.
I am breathing in peace and breathing out the war inside my heart.
 

January 22, 2013

Catching Up With Myself

I am on my deathbed, sick as all hell. I have chosen to take this time to update my blog. Our lives are a wee bit hectic and if I can't take five minutes to write a blurb, then I need to reschedule stuff pronto.

In October, our family went to Disneyland, Sea World and Universal Studios. It was a week of vacation overload and it was amazing!! It seems that as soon as we crossed state lines, Chunko decided he was capable of speaking full and clear sentences. Out of nowhere, he was making demands and spinning his wild baby tales. He was tattling and begging to go on rides right along with his brother and sister.

My baby is 10!!! How on earth did he go from 4 o 10 overnight?!?! It is so hard to look at this boy and realize that he is just around the corner of teen mania. He is maturing too fast. He is super smart and somehow manages to be the Teacher's Pet but also the Class Clown. I adore his goofy jokes and crazy faces.

November and December are a whirlwind. Lots of family time and lots of parties. Every weekend was some sort of gathering. Christmas was so wonderful. It was marred by some difficult behavior but it was still amazing.

2013 has not yet brought good tidings for us. It has brought some and I am trying to focus on them but the more negative aspects are still a little prominent. We were hit by some very large unexpected medical charges and my love's car broke down and needed some fixins.

What has hit me hardest is my grandmother's passing. I am trying to mourn her to the best of my ability but due to circumstances I (who works in a funeral home) have been blocked out of helping.

I have also lost my fragile relationship with my mother. What could have easily been fixed, was allowed to waste away and rot. I am in a depression and am mourning my loss of her, too. While she has not passed, I still feel that it will be a great amount time before this can be healed, if ever.

That is hard to say. Nobody wants to be without their Mommy but I haven't had mine in years.

I am NOT focusing on the negative! I refuse to.

My sister graduated Suma Cum Laude with her Bachelor's degree!!! I am in awe of her. A single mom for too long, working full time, going to school full time. Then, she meets a great man, marries him and graduates Suma Cum Laude!! I teared up watching her walk across that stage and receive her degree and handshake.

My other sister and I did a quirky road trip to watch her graduate and sneak in some fun time at Castles & Coasters. It was crazy and if it had been with anyone else, it could have gotten ugly quickly. My niece cried pretty much the whole time we were in the car. She is lucky she is so adorable or the person sitting next to her (ie, me) might have strapped her carseat to the roof of the car. My nephew vomited fruit loops on the way there. I will not be eating those for a looooooong time. The smell is still stuck in my nose. My gooboo threw up as we pulled into the parking lot of our motel. We had a smidge of time to clean up, shove the four crazy babies back in the car and make it to the graduation. The next day we partied at Castles & Coasters. The babies loved the coasters. My niece was miffed she couldn't ride the bigger rides (cause she's a midget) and Chunko could (cause he's a beast). Of course, on the way back, my gooboo threw up all over the car, which started a chain of gagging from the rest of us. We were in 20 degree weather wiping down my son, wiping down the car and gagging. Thankfully the rest stop restroom was very well heated and the cashier was very understanding.

My job has gotten incredibly busy with new expectations. I thrive on it but I am learning how to manage my time better. I went from some work here and there to holy hell in less than a month. I am used to my desk having neat piles here and there and now it is usually covered in paperwork. My OCD cries regularly. I have my own desk! I am so excited. I haven't had my own desk in a long time. I share it on the weekends but we all share our desks at some point. I am no longer reception and have been moved to admin. No more phonecalls but lots more paperwork.

I know we are only a month into 2013 and I am eager to see what it brings us. Normally, after a downpour such as this, we are blessed with sunshine so I am excited for this to pass. Cause as they say "this too shall pass" and it will.

Here is a pic of my two poor sick babies, no one is safe from my camera: